A Moment Of Honesty

I have been absent from blogging consistently for some time now. Sorry to all 3 of you who read this...(Hi Mom!)

I even hesitate to write this because I’m not looking for your self-pity but in a moment of honesty…I am finding that I’m so in over my stinking head these days. Now don’t read into this. I’m not having a personal breakdown or anything...and no I’m not standing on a bridge. =)

I just know that as a leader sometimes I have the tendency to project that I have it all together.
In case you haven’t already noticed this about my life: I don’t. I think I need to be honest with you and say everything is not “fine” all the time.

There are certain days I feel so overwhelmed I question my every move. And I bet I’m not alone. I bet many of you have moments where you’re…
Making decisions you’ve never made before.
Being criticized more frequently than before.
Facing situations you’ve never seen before.
Moving faster than you’ve ever moved before.
Risking more than you ever have before.
And you feel like you're running through a dark forest.

Henri Nouwen said…
“When we become aware that we do not have to escape our pains, but that we can mobilize them into a common search for life, those very pains are transformed from expressions of despair into signs of hope”

So I apologize in advance, but I’m going to be scarce around here for a little while I allow God to help me pull my life and emotions back together. I know He’ll help me transform them from expressions of despair to signs of hope.

God is humbling me and I’m learning to lean on Him for every ounce of strength.